Blogging Reluctantly

Our Life. Our Memories. My point of view on both. Captured here.

And so it begins. December 31, 2010

SO 2010 is almost a freaking wrap…anyone sad? Not me. It wasn’t a bad year, in fact it was basically the best year eva! But I’m ready to move on, ready to put the God DAMN BEAN BAG  PLACE TO BED For good. Ready to forget all the drama that was that place and the bitchy co-workers…HEY FYI NEXT TIME DON’T LAUGH ABOUT SOMEONE GETTING BIT BY BLACK FLIES YOU GOD DAMN PSYCHO!  There now that, that has passed LMAO. I’m ready to shake all of it off and step out of the fog.  I am ready to reverse the mistakes and hopefully God Willing have another baby, or at the very least restore my body to it’s natural state and hope like hell it works.

We are so excited about this process and I will begin thoroughly chronically my process Monday with my first step in the right direction by having my first lady appointment in well over 5 years. I’m scared to death, I would rather NOT know I have something wrong…get sick one day and drop dead than know I’m ill and wither away slowly. I have no reason to believe that I’m not well, I have faith I am okay but I’m still terrified, terrified that the life I want to have and have been planning  my life around will  for some god forsaken reason be ripped away.  BUT after all of these years I need to face the scared feelings and know.  SO I scheduled the appointment and hopefully I can even get the ultrasound out of the way to be 100% sure there has been no changes to my body that would prevent our process.

I hope you’ll all tune in for updates and if anything throw some encouragement my way. I need it.


Merry Christmas. December 26, 2010

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2010 Christmas is now in our back pocket.  The season ended MUCH better than it began working at that soul sucking hot mess of a company with the biggest jerks I’ve ever encountered! (YEP I’m talking about you direct co-workers and I truly enjoyed thinking about all the suffering you went through in my absence!)  To say I had some Christmas spirit would be an understatement. As  always happens  my oldest ended up screwing up the whole morning, my youngest got cheated out of a nice Christmas and I screamed about it all for about an hour. (Merry F’ing Christmas.) I love and hate the holidays and YOU KNOW those trees are coming down today.

I send cards every year, I didn’t write a letter this year. Do you write letters every year? If you didn’t receive mine did you miss it?  I’m not sure if I  will do one again.


Kit-Kat had the right idea…the holidays are here….might as well nap! Aside from the drama of the morning the holidays were not a complete bust, thankfully it’s over and life can return to normal.  Thankfully.


See ya suckers…I mean goodbye I’ll miss you. December 5, 2010

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Today is the first day of the rest of my life.  I know Fee-Fiii-Faux-PAWWW, but it is.  I now longer work for ____.  I’m not dumb enough to go and mention their name for Christs sake, because let’s face it these people have my last check and my vacation time to send out.  So for now I’ll be all….”Hey friend”  After that money is in my hot hand, I’ll be all F-YOU.

I resigned today.  I gave notice yesterday.  I intended to be an adult.  I swore it would be only as ugly as they wanted it to be.  It was an ugly all out war that I had not planned on.  I am thankful that it rolled down the road the way it did.  I will not ever regret this day.  I will not miss the drama, the negative bull shit that was my direct co-worker the nonstop freak outs, the tension, the criminals, OMG. I am so happy to be gone.  So SO SO happy to not ever see the inside of those walls ever again.

There were good times, there were really funny times.  Family guy was quoted, many chuckles were had…but then there was all the times that make me mad to think about….those memories are the fuel that will make you change your life.  I am so thankful for that fuel. 

I begin my new job on Tuesday. I’m taking Monday off to relax, to unwind, to enjoy some me time. G.D. it I deserve it.  I need it.  Life begins again tomorrow.  Life is so good.